This week is kinda slack for me i guess. I only have like one day of work coza 非常 Superband commitments. Abby's been gone for 2 days, and well ive been trying my best to keep myself busy and occupied while he's missing in action. Haha. Somehow, i really really want this relationship to work.. I wanna bring him home, introduce him to my family, I know they'd love him. Even though he's a malay and he's muslim, it really doesnt matter to me anymore. I used to be so afraid about bringing my boyfriends home coz i know my parents would make a big fuss about who i date. Now its like, i really dont care. Its my life, its my decision and its my future. When it comes to love, no one decides but myself.

Well, maybe im still a little afraid, coz i want things to work out so badly. I dont wanna hurt anyone anymore and i wanna stop all the shit that i used to do. I trust abby, and i hope he trusts me. I hope we share the same ideas on where we want this relationship to go and i hope we can make it go far. When we spend our time together, the best part is never the make outs, or the hang outs.. It is when we lie next to each other, and just start talking and sharing things. You know, it can go on forever, and i will never complain coz its the only thing that connects me to him, and its the only thing that makes me understand him better.

Anyways, my birthday's coming in like 5 days!!! I used to complain to myself how slow i seem to be growing up. I keep asking myself when will i ever turn 21 so i dont hafta keep listening to my parents, and id finally get to decide for myself. Now its like wow, im finally 21! It's really time to stop playing around and think about my future. Phew!

I wanna start writing songs again. I wanna start singing again. I wanna start expressing myself again.

Oh well, 5 more days till i can really smile again. Abby baby, thanks fer loving me for me.. :)

Such fat cheeks. :P




Thank you Lijuan for the drumsticks!! 我不設得用哦！


My number one fan, Cheng Guang!! Mwaks mwaks! :P


Where's Elaine?? HAha.


SCREAMM!! :D
Phew!

Somehow when i woke on thursday, i felt so refreshed. It was as if i was cleansed from top to toe; like getting baptized. I guess it's a new start for me all over again and i dont wanna screw this up ever. It's been approximately 4 months since the whole drama began; time really flies huh.. I am glad things happened the way it did coz well i had to let go and sacrifice some stuffs, but i also learnt to treasure other things. Trav, you'll always be my best friend coz i can never live with you outta my life. You're my soulmate, and the one who knows me inside out. Even though you've let me down before (well, so have i) i still trust you whole-heartedly and you will always be close to my heart.

I've moved on, though i know it was rather too quickly. But im happy coz he makes me happy. Im thankful ive got someone as loving as Abby is and even though we dont see each other daily, ive learnt to be mature about that. It's just something about Abby that makes me excited. (Hey hey.. not in the dirty sorta way ok) I hope to work something outta this relationship; well hopefully i get to settle down with him. :P (Ok Eva stop thinking that far!!)

Wanted to delete all my archives coz i realise lotsa Screamm fans know about this personal blog. I dont blame the fans for glancing lar, it was silly me who advertised it all over myspace, facebook and friendster. I mean, im not ashamed of my past. It's just that, my old old entries remind me of how weak and stupid i was. I was like 18 when i started this blog and im almost twenty one now. It's amazing how many dramas have been happening over the years.

Talkin about fans, I LOVE MY FANS!! Alot of my friends are like telling me i shouldnt be too close to them otherwise they'd spread rumours about you and shit. But i always always believe that the fans are the most important element in stupid competitions like 非常Superband. I appreciate the fans and whenever they do something for me, i try to return the gesture by giving them something small back. So, there's no need to hide anything from them, as long as whatever they see from me is genuine and sincere, well thats how i am now. I dont have to pretend to be nice or something just coz i dont want them to have a bad impression of me. This is how i am and thats the way it is! :D Btw, i love Cheng guang and Lijuan. They're my bestest fans ever! :D

And Abby, i love you to friggin much! You owe me a million kissies coz youre so tempting! :P
1 Corinthians 13:4 - 13

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
fuck off lar bastard!

This week is kinda slack for me i guess. I only have like one day of work coza 非常 Superband commitments. Abby's been gone for 2 days, and well ive been trying my best to keep myself busy and occupied while he's missing in action. Haha. Somehow, i really really want this relationship to work.. I wanna bring him home, introduce him to my family, I know they'd love him. Even though he's a malay and he's muslim, it really doesnt matter to me anymore. I used to be so afraid about bringing my boyfriends home coz i know my parents would make a big fuss about who i date. Now its like, i really dont care. Its my life, its my decision and its my future. When it comes to love, no one decides but myself.

Well, maybe im still a little afraid, coz i want things to work out so badly. I dont wanna hurt anyone anymore and i wanna stop all the shit that i used to do. I trust abby, and i hope he trusts me. I hope we share the same ideas on where we want this relationship to go and i hope we can make it go far. When we spend our time together, the best part is never the make outs, or the hang outs.. It is when we lie next to each other, and just start talking and sharing things. You know, it can go on forever, and i will never complain coz its the only thing that connects me to him, and its the only thing that makes me understand him better.

Anyways, my birthday's coming in like 5 days!!! I used to complain to myself how slow i seem to be growing up. I keep asking myself when will i ever turn 21 so i dont hafta keep listening to my parents, and id finally get to decide for myself. Now its like wow, im finally 21! It's really time to stop playing around and think about my future. Phew!

I wanna start writing songs again. I wanna start singing again. I wanna start expressing myself again.

Oh well, 5 more days till i can really smile again. Abby baby, thanks fer loving me for me.. :)